After the second webinar with our module leader, Anna, in which we discussed aspects of the various photographic markets, it is becoming very clear that this is tough industry to succeed in, despite the fact that there is a constant demand for imagery. I find myself feeling daunted at times, wondering if it is possible to break into the photographic industry at this stage in my life. At other times, I find myself comparing my work to that of others and wondering where exactly it fits in, as I’m not quite sure who would buy it or where my market would really be. These are the days where I suffer from ‘low creative worth’ and wonder what I was thinking taking on this course.

My research project is taking up all my spare time and I am spending most of the weekend walking around the city and in the underpasses, a far less than glamorous role and not quite what people think photography is like. I have been tired, cold, rained on and stared at by strangers who can’t understand what I am doing hanging around a concrete underpass. I am getting used to being uncomfortable now and no longer notice the stares but I do feel a little bit like I’m losing heart in my project. This might be since Ursa the Bear was removed from the Bearpit a few weeks ago, as I feel like the heart of the city went with her. Even though I predicted it would happen, I never anticipated that it would hit me quite so hard or that I would feel a little lost without Ursa. I wonder if others in the city feel that way too.